This is really a place for me to express my kinky side to all of those that would like to partake in it. Hopefully, it gives anyone in similar situations inspiration and drive to make things happen.
I know what it was like to feel different and not to have people nearby to talk to about some of it, but eventually you encounter those that help you out and educate you on the world you want to explore. So play safe!
Had a great time with my girlfriend this weekend. We were at her parent's place and I got to sleep in a different room down the hallway. Good news was that we had some alone time and had hot, dirty, dangerous, and spontaneous sex and it was amazing!
I didn't think that my girlfriend would cum so fast from riding me like that, she was so turned on by the forbidden nature of the encounter she was all revved up as well, and she exploded into an orgasm!
This was pretty hot, not to mention that we had a little dry humping and mutual masturbation-style encounter the night before with her family in the house...granted most were asleep, but it was all pretty great!
It seems like nothing is going right and nothing is going wrong. I just can't get life to work today...part of my classes sucked as I forgot to complete part of an assignment, but could do it in class, but then we didn't really do anything important for two hours of another class! I got back to my room after a late dinner and after fixing a work issue and turned on my computer and TV to see that I'm currently missing the opening episode of this season's GLEE! (it was about half over, just enough time to not watch the rest of it without being confused)
I probably would feel about like "Kurt" in the picture below if I could really feel anything about it besides kinda disappointed in my own scatter-brained behavior.
Then I know that I really need to study for this class and I have almost not motivation to do it. Dang you DNA! and stuff related to it...anyone love the structures of the purines and pyrimidines?
You might guess that I'm horny or something, but actually I'm not and I can't really do anything right now. I think I might even resort to playing video games which I haven't picked up for like half a year. Then drawing those stupid chemical structures as seen above....this sucks!
So I am taken, which means that if you were ever hoping that me and you could be soul mates in bondage forever, it is very unlikely as my girlfriend really only likes to play with me.
I do love her and she loves me, and we will probably get married.
That being said, and if you are still reading, she is really friendly and open about chatting with people that would like to play with me or both of us as long as we chat. There are a lucky few that I have been talking with for years and never had the opportunity to meet, but now that she is also in talks with them it is looking like someday we will play with them.
I have gotten to have an adventure or two on my own, but I do look to her for the permission to go as she has the vibes of whether or not this person is trustworthy. Granted, I might have talked with someone and she hasn't gotten to know them, but this is all up to her. She is my partner and mistress for that matter, even though I sometimes do dominate her at her request. I do have to agree that there is always time to be more submissive, even for my mistress!
I know that it isn't everyone's interest, but I have discovered that pup play is a pretty exciting and releasing activity. I met with two guys know as Fossil9 from GearFetish and Recon and they are the players that really broke me into it. I had expressed an interest and they had been excited to play with me so we did some of it. I loved it and have looked at many pics on the internet like the few below that get me pretty horny when I think about it.
I'm not sure if it is the whole not being human thing, or that is just seems like a "slave" should not be anything but a dog. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy being a human being and don't wish I could become a dog, a puppy, or whatever permanently...and I most certainly DO NOT want to have sex with animals!
It is just fun to be a pup and play around I guess.
Being a kid that grew up with access to the internet, I clearly had the opportunity to look for pornography when I wanted it. Granted, this wasn't a purposeful goal as much as an accidental happenstance, or serendipitous moment. Here is how it all started, or at least what I can remember.
It happened on a school computer in junior high, in the schools library. I had to do some research and clicked from Google to Google images to discover a photo. This was not an erotic photo, or at least, not to most people, but it centered around bondage, slavery, or some sort of tying up as that is how I realized that you could Google search for porn. The thing is, back then the stuff that was blocked was all mainstream porn that consisted of people having sex, not covering the fetish interests of a teenage boy.
It was a combination of this, exposure to the American version of one episode of "Don't Forget Your Toothbrush" (featuring some fetish sex items like a ball gag head harness, a tongue vibrator, and some other dirty items), and reading up in the Webster's dictionary some words associated with bondage like "fetters" and "manacles".
That is the jack off material that got me through my teenage years until I figured out how to look for better porn, became of legal age to enter an adult store and buy a dirty DVD, and had a credit card to buy sex gear online as the shop in town didn't have anything. ( The DVD below was my first, it was cheap, in more ways that one and didn't really do anything for me, but I think I liked the school uniform thing at the time)
"I am hot" that is what my girlfriend would say. Yes, I have a girlfriend. I like guys too, she is pretty accepting of this idea as long as she gets to evaluate the guys that I talk with, or if ever meet up with.
So the deal goes like this...I live a secret life of fetish. I'm from a small town, and there are a few gay men in this town (as I have spoken to one gay couple who assured me of more), not that there is a nightlife for that sort of thing. I have always been intrigued with the idea of gay sex, but then again, I really like girls, especially the one that I am with. There is no way that I would ever not take my girlfriend...but I wouldn't turn down a hot guy either.
I was planning on posting random stuff from my life dealing with relationship or fetish topics, but this whole thing might turn into a blog about sexy pics...I mean, the first is important, but so is the second, right?
I think I will eventually focus on what turns me on, or what I have done that evolved my fetish tastes, but for now I want to crank out another post for anyone that wanted to know this much.
This is my first blog. I am really new to this, so hopefully it comes along as I want it to. I'm in college still and I'm not sure how much time I can devote to this, but I hope to as least get something every week, if not multiple times. Maybe I can even work out a schedule as my classes work themselves out.